It's about time!

Get to the point.....

I have never been big on talking for for the sake of talking.  So here is the announcement:  I have been selected to join the Air Force as a Chaplain.  I start training in Alabama in the beginning of July and then will be stationed at Pope AF base in Fayetteville, NC. 

Many people have asked, "why"?  Why the military?  Why leave Southwest Alliance?  The bottom line is i feel God calling me and my family to serve Him in the military context.  I am prior military so i know the need.  I think it is a great honor to serve those who sacrifice so much to keep this country free under God's reign.  I also believe that my gifts, personality and talents blend better with a military context than being an EM pastor in a Korean-speaking church. 

Please keep SWAC in prayer as well as my family.  This will be a huge adjustment for Grace as she learns how the military culture differs mainstream culture.  Hope all is well with each of you!

Two red lines are a good thing!  Grace has made me a very happy man once again.  She is carrying my next son or daughter!  God has been so good to my family.  I have always wanted to have kids and the desires of my heart are being met by God's grace.  The baby should arrive sometime in the beginning of december if my calculations are right.  What a birthday present to a daddy!  Easter Sunday was wonderful.  We had a joint service and it was spirit-filled from the beginning to the end. 

Well, just wanted to share the news! 

Needless to say, this has been a very long month.  my emotions are all over the place.  the passion of Christ moved me spiritually to the point of an awakening.  Hana's pemature death rocked me as if i was hit by a truck.  so unexpected, so traumatic, so sorrowful.  i am truly thankful that i got to know her.  i have wrestled through the "what if i would have done this...or why didn't i do more...or why her and not me.  but i realize these are questions that can not be answered nor are they healthy for my soul.  i will never forget Hana, and i will live my life differently as a result of knowing her.  I give myself permission to cry openly and realize that it is going to take time to heal the emptyness that i feel when i think about her.  regret and guilt are only worthwhile if they move us into living differently today.  I can't change the event, but i can change the way i view others and the way i cherish every relationship that i now have.  but still...my heart is still broken...and i grieve, and mourn and pray for understanding.

for those of you in NY, i miss you all and wish i were there to cry with you.  i wish i were there to help put the pieces back together in each of our lives.  hang in there, God feels our pain and He knows something about losing someone very dear and close to Him.  let's turn to Him for comfort instead of turning inward with judgment on ourselves. 

i don't know what else to say except that i mourn both the death of Christ on the cross and Hana's death.  i just thank God for the resurrection of both...life can go on with hope and meaning!

The bird has landed....i repeat, the bird has landed.  Our desire for the worldly just came through...we broke down and bought our new van on wednesday night.  although it isn't red, grace loves the new color, azure blue.  quite modern and spring-like.

this thing is huge.  i feel like i am driving a 15 person passenger van.  it honestly feels that big and roomy inside.  i think Josiah loves his new "captain seat" instead of being squished in the back of the old 1993 century buick. 

other than that, i want to say "HAPPY B-DAY" to my one and only.  i love you very much Grace.  you deserve only the best...i am blessed to have you by my side in life and in ministry.  if any of you see a light blue, 2004 nissan quest, it is probably us since only 2% of their entire production line is in this color.  happy searching.